Tangy's 21st party was great.. lots of warmth and love indeed.
The party was made great, because she is a great friend herself. This authenticity is tested and proven.
had a drink or two, opened the lovely and nice gifts that she received.
and we sang, and sang and sang. lol surely Bingren and Justin are people of great musical talent.
(and thanks Roy for sending me home again too lol)
even though i was tired, and my sight was blurred, i felt as though i breathed.
i really don't want to think, or to feel. i just want to be lost in something. anything but people. people are people and sometimes it just doesn't work out i suppose, no matter how great they may be.
What am i saying.
maybe i've forgotten about myself. or how to love myself.
lol even after hours of sleep i'm still tired. the lethargy coming from deep within.
i'm scared. i'm not confident. i can't trust anyone. i'm tired of building walls inside my heart when they keep falling apart.
God, i need greater faith within me. Alot alot more faith. because i am but a youth with barely anything at all, to live with and to give.
i'm not a boy, not yet a man, but trying really very hard in every way possible to be one.
i'm not rich, but i'm trying to bless to the very best of my abilities.
i'm not talented, but i'm trying to make something out of everything that i do.
i still feel the sorrowful void after all that i've been through, but i'm trying to get by each day as though it never existed.
i want to be loved, but i'm trying so smile and confess that Your Love is MORE THAN ENOUGH FOR ME!
i want to breathe.
