Janet sang a great version of Steph Sun's Silent tonight at the usual cell group KTV outing. she's got a remarkable voice, in addition to her finesse in dance; a perfect match of talents.
Well it was pretty alright today. But thoughts loomed in as usual without cessation.
Loved Peacan, Tangy's retriever, though it ate the burger wrapper and chewed on my wrist.
This is the first post in a long time, after feeling the need to at least talk and listen to myself.
Deep within lies a curiosity, for how the people around me has spent their christmas, as well as how they are feeling.
The only joy that i felt, was when i was in the house of God. All i ever thought about was Jesus' great love for me, the very same day i got saved 5 years back, and how everyone else showed their gratitude for the Gift from above.
everything else, was just dry and bland as flour.
trying to get by this christmas without my pay from my job is partly why this season is pretty much miserable. there are so many gifts that i would like to get for my loved ones, but all i have is my super little allowance. lol.. i guess buddy is lucky in a way that i bought his real gift 1 month in advance haha D: (and nice iridium lens lol, but that just means 1 less gift option for your bithday -_-)
There's still Tangy's and buddy's birthdays, as well as the gift exchange. As of today i have to make a firm stand not to spend unnecessarily. i rather give good gifts at the expense of my fun and social life.
while i'm harvesting my crops and doing my jobs (addicted to farmville and mafia wars apparently), i see wall posts of gifts after gifts, dinners after dinners, blah. makes me feel sick.
I am thankful to God that i have the greatest, most hardworking mum in the whole universe, even though there was no christmas feast, no gifts, no dinners.
I'm thankful to God that i'm still here in this world breathing, and given the chance to know how great He is, even though i don't have money, nor fancy, luxurious presents stuffed in a red sock.
I'm thankful to God that i have people in my life who have put in effort to come into my life, to be a true pillar and friend to me, even though they are very busy, and have their own share of burdens.
It's always nice to hear someone telling you that they love you, to be hugged, to be blessed, to receive a gift from the bottom of one's heart. in other words, it's just makes your day to receive the exact thing that you lack within.
but i know that i can make it through without them all. i need to.
wallet's empty, red sock's empty, nights are lonely, but the smile on your faces has made this christmas content and merry..
dancing in the dark.
