slogged for months, and took a month off to socialise and give myself a break.
made repayments to the bank, though unable to clear them, at least i brought minimal monthly repayments down significantly for mum.
my mental state seems to be deteriorating, after a few uncontrollable emotional outbreaks in the train.
the searing pain in the heart so overwhelming, hurt and burned so hard that even my will had failed me.
i still have problems communicating with my sister (k maybe the whole family); it's just crazy how a little of her insolence can make my tolerance snap almost instantly.
but i know that i know, that He will never waste any pain that He has put me through.
forget about loss and regret; when i take a look around, i have found people that would lend a hand, and mend this broken heart and life of mine.
so much change, so little time to blog about it.
i'll take my time when i'm back from tekong i guess. wouldn't want to spoil some surprises i'd like to give.
i've got a tight grip of reality, but i can't let go of what's in front of me here.
it's already an irremovable tattoo, scarred by hurt.
if there's anything i'd pray for, i'd pray that this getaway of mine will make me strong enough to overcome it.
i will rise again, and be that nice and cool guy everyone once knew.
and i'll be strong enough to be myself, to take my stands whenever necessary.
all i can say to you is:
i missed our friendship, the best that i had in my life so far.
but you got to take your eyes off yourself, and fix it around, above and beyond.
make your boundaries happen; just so you know, you crossed my boundary, not the other way round.
till then, ........ =)
